In the last days of autumn, snow fell and froze so that the bones crackled like ice.
The wind drives passersby behind the walls, pushing them into the backs, while sharp snowflakes cut into the skin, my once delicate cheek skin. Over the past month, I have made a short horror film as a director and also shot another film as a cinematographer. Ota was shown at the Night Visions Festival along with the Q&A session and, oh, how exciting it was.
All this is to do something while several of my applications are under consideration. During our second meeting with Anne, we discussed the details of one of the applications. I am interested in the question of how to convey my whole essence in my application - both my creative ideas, my thoughts on sustainability, and the deep psychological aspect of the film.
After our second meeting, I formed a very specific intention - I want to learn how to talk about myself in such a way that all the diversity of my life is apparent to the interlocutor/reader/jury, I want to learn how to write applications so that both fiction film, and sustainability, and my passion for technology form a complete picture, and not a disjointed tangle a little bit of everything. At the moment, I feel that I am not able to create a complete picture of myself. I have a lot of hobbies, skills, ideas, and I want to be an understandable holistic object, especially when I write applications.
After reviewing my last application, I was left with a heavy feeling that I had not mentioned so many important things - they simply did not occur to me, and with the help of Anna, I realized which sources could be indicated and who to turn to for help. Now there are two months of waiting for the result, and the waiting itself is a very difficult period. I am busy with projects that can help me in the future with showreel, I participated in two programs that help women in the field of art. Admittedly, winter is a very difficult period - you want to force yourself to leave the house as much as possible and participate in everything, it all piles up a lot, and the energy resource is very limited and almost not replenished. Sauna, bath, water - as the speaker at the WIFT Summit said - you can always harvest the energy from the body of water.
To tell the truth, my immediate goal for this year was to make another short film - I shot two and the second one in the process. I think it's important to sometimes praise yourself for the past and not just be nervous about the future. Summing up this year, I feel that I can set a bolder goal - a larger project, a full-length film or TV series, participate in the projects of my classmates, and become part of a community that shares my ideas of ecofeminism.